"Run Away"

I'm still scared. Afraid of failing
Anticipating, the ride to end.
before the wheels begin to move.

(Run away) So I can hide.
(Run away) I've mastered feeling nothing.
(Run away) I'm dead inside.
(Run away) Why don't I care?

Waste my time, commiserating,
Self medicating - it's my design
Although I know you don't approve

(Run away) So I can hide.
(Run away) I've mastered feeling nothing.
(Run away) I'm dead inside.
(Run away) Why don't I care?

The truth is that I'm not so good
At showing how I feel.
Or keeping my mouth shut
When there's something to conceal.
Or knowing how to love,
Love's not in my memories
How can I rise above
All my insecurities

(Run away) So I can hide.
(Run away) I've mastered feeling nothing.
(Run away) I'm dead inside.
(Run away) Why don't I care?

(Run away) I fight the tide
(Run away) The ebb and flow consuming
(Run away) Still by my side
(Run away) Why should you care?

"Right Here"

I know I've been mistaken
But just give me a break and see the changes that I've made
I've got some imperfections
But how can you collect them all and throw them in my face

But you always find a way to keep me right here waiting
You always find the words to say to keep me right here waiting
And if you chose to walk away I'd still be right here waiting
Searching for the things to say to keep you right here waiting

I hope you're not intending
To be so condescending it's as much as i can take
and you're so independent
you just refuse to bend so I keep bending till I break

But you always find a way to keep me right here waiting
You always find the words to say to keep me right here waiting
And if you chose to walk away I'd still be right here waiting
Searching for the things to say to keep you right here waiting

I've made a commitment
I'm willing to bleed for you
I needed fulfillment
I found what I need in you

Why can't you just forgive me
I don't want to relive all the mistakes I've made along the way
But I always find a way to keep you right here waiting
I always find the words to say to keep you right here waiting

But you always find a way
To keep me right here waiting
You always find the words to say to keep me right here waiting
And if I chose to walk away would you be right here waiting
Searching for the things to say to keep me right here waiting

"Paper Jesus"

You take this all for granted.
All the things that used to be you.
By keeping you distracted
Just long enough to bleed you... dry

A reason for your anger,
It's what I need, it's what I need.
To recognize the truth
It's what I need, it's what I need.
So burn your paper Jesus
It's what I need, it's what I need,
And all the things you do,
It's what I need, it's what I need.

Question what they tell you
All the lies that they are teaching,
And they've made a corporation
Out of desperate people's feelings... of fear

Somebody chose these words for you.
Interpretations of the truth.
Somewhere behind your fear they hide.
To fill the holes inside.

"Schizophrenic Conversations"

Are you afraid, afraid of the truth
In the mirror staring back at you.
The image is cracked but so is the view, here.
And the strength of a tree begins in the roots
That I tend bury into you
At least now the storm can't blow me away.

So crawl inside my head with me.
I'll show you how it feels to be,
To blame like me.

Should I be afraid of this face that I see
In the mirror staring back at me?
So cold were the days when I listened to you.
And you say that I'm weak so show me the proof
Because I still exist in spite of you
But I won't compete with you every day.

So crawl inside my head with me.
I'll show you how it feels to be,
To blame like me.

Schizophrenic conversations that
I'm always having with myself.
I hear these voices in my head competing.
Maybe I could use a little help
I still have schizophrenic conversations
Where there's no one else around to hear.
I long for solitude and peace within me
Void of all the anger and the fear.

So crawl inside my head with me.
I'll show you how it feels to be,
Fucked up like me.

I'll show you how it feels to be
To blame like me
Ashamed like me

"Falling"

You in your shell are you waiting for someone to rescue you from yourself.
Don't be disappointed when no one comes.

Don't blame me you didn't get it [3x]

I already told you, that falling is easy it's getting back up that becomes the problem, becomes the problem
If you don't believe that you can find a way out you become the problem, become the problem.

Don't blame me you didn't get it [3x]

You, all alone, are you waiting for someone to make you whole?
Can't you see aren't you tired of this dysfunctional routine.

I already told you, that falling is easy it's getting back up that becomes the problem, becomes the problem
If you don't believe you can find a way out, you become the problem, become the problem.

Falling is easy it's getting back up that becomes the problem, becomes the problem
And if you believe you can find a way out
Then you've solved the problem, you've solved your problem.

"Cross To Bear"

Twisting, turning, crashing, burning,
All this just to break me down.

You don't know me
You don't see me
You don't own me because I don't care.
But I'm still here,
Patiently waiting for you to disappear.
Is this my cross to bear?

Faceless, faking, pushing, taking,
All this just to bring me down.

[x1]
You don't know me
you don't see me
you don't own me because I don't care.
But I'm still here,
Patiently waiting for you to disappear.
Is this my cross to bear?

You don't know me,
You don't own me cause I'm aware.
And I'm still here,
Patiently waiting for you to disappear.
Is this my cross to bear?

I'm still here,
Reluctantly waiting for you to interfere.
This is my cross to bear

"Devil"

She sits alone again
And tries her best not to pretend
That all she used to live for
Was the love that wasn't there

And every time she needs to do the things
That she believes
Will fill the void inside of her
Because he was never there

[2x]
And she says, 'I swear I'm not the devil,
Though you think I am.
I swear I'm not the devil'

He tries to sleep again
And wonders when the pain will end
The cuts, they may run deeper than his cracking outer shell

He looks with tired eyes
At all the people hypnotized
And wonders what will save him
From his self created hell.

[2x]
And he says, 'I swear I'm not the devil,
Though you think I am.
I swear I'm not the devil'

I always fail to see the little things in front of me
The things that mean so much to you; a way to let you know.
That I appreciate the way you always tolerate
But sometimes when I medicate
Frustration in you shows me how you feel.

But I swear I'm not the devil,
Though you think I am.
I swear I'm not the devil

And I scream,
I swear I'm not the devil.
Though you think I am.
I swear I'm not the devil.

"Please"

Can't you see that I'm sick of this?
Chances are you're oblivious to how I feel
Sitting on your throne, and I'm sure that I'm not alone,
Not alone, not alone.

Tell me please,
Who the fuck did you want me to be?
Was it something that I couldn't see?
Never knew this would be so political.
And please, I'm still wearing this miserable skin
And it's starting to tear from within
But it's obvious that doesn't bother you, so please

I didn't think that you'd sell me out
Now I know what you're all about.
You might feel in control of things.
But you're not holding all the strings.
All the strings, all the strings.

Tell me please,
Who the fuck did you want me to be?
Was it something that I couldn't see?
Never knew this would be so political.
And please, I'm still wearing this miserable skin
And it's starting to tear from within
But it's obvious that doesn't matter to you,
So please

I've swallowed all your answers
I've swallowed all my pride
You've used up all your chances
Can't keep this all inside

Tell me please,
Who the fuck did you want me to be?
Was it something that I couldn't see?
Never knew this would be so political.
And please, I'm still wearing this miserable skin
And it's starting to tear from within
But it's obvious that doesn't bother you

So please don't keep telling me that it's ok
I don't buy all the shit that you say
And quite honestly I'm fucking sick of it
so please if I cut off this nose from my face
Then I wouldn't feel so out of place
But it still wouldn't be quite enough for you,
so please.

"Everything Changes"

If you just walked away
What could I really say?
Would it matter anyway?
Would it change how you feel?

I am the mess you chose
The closet you cannot close,
The devil in you I suppose
'Cause the wounds never heal.

[Chorus:]
But everything changes
If I could turn back the years
If you could learn to forgive me
Then I could learn to feel,

Sometimes the things I say
In moments of disarray
Succumbing to the games we play
To make sure that it's real.

[Chorus]

When it's just me and you.
Who knows what we could do.
If we can just make it through
The toughest part of the day.

[Chorus]

Stay here together
And we could
Conquer the world
If we could
Say that forever
Is more than just a word.

If you just walked away
What could I really say?
Would it matter anyway?.
It wouldn't change how you feel.

"Take This"

I can't believe how far I've come
Watch me stumble and come undone
If you take away, these memories
All that's left, is just me

[Chorus:]
'Cause I don't want this
And I don't need this
And I don't feel this
It seems that even though she's with me I can't shake this
I can't fake this
And I won't take this anymore

So you choose to break my heart
I should have seen this from the start
I'm haunted by your apathy
All that's left is killing me

[Chorus]

Do you believe that the way you choose to be
I've always had to see
The brighter side of this so I don't lose my faith
Now the sun has gone away
It's getting colder everyday
So before I freeze to death there's something I should say

I don't want this
I don't take this anymore
And I don't feel this
It seems that even though she's with me I can't shake this
And I can't fake this
And I won't take this anymore

And though you say you understand you still won't face this
Can't erase this
I won't embrace this anymore

"King Of All Excuses"

You, I trusted your intentions a trust you took advantage of now you are sitting in the hole that you
dug around yourself.

You've lied so much you think it's true
Do you know what the truth is?
How does someone get to be like you?
The king of all excuses?

Is she your partner in deception caught inside the web you've spun?
Did you forget that you were family, the damage you have done?

You've lied so much you think it's true
Do you know what the truth is?
How does someone get to be like you?
The king of all excuses?

I trusted you. I trusted in you.

This time you're gonna get it
All the things you've done coming back to you
This time you're gonna feel it
Your conscience slowly suffocating you
In time you will regret it
Say goodbye to all the things you've gotten used to
Life will find a way to bring this karma to you
Life will find a way to bring this karma to you

You've lied so much you think it's true
Do you know what the truth is?
How does someone get to be like you?
The king of all excuses?

Everything must come full circle
It kills me that I feel this hurtful
I wonder what your children think of you,
The king of all excuses.

"Reply"

I have seen to many sad eyes look at me,
Eyes that set me free,
All the places that I've been.

Thank you for the letters that you thought you wrote in vain
And for the times you chose to stand out in the rain and wait for me,
For me.

Your words,
Your words help me to see
A little honesty
In a world that doesn't share
And your eyes
Tell the story of your pain
Severity of your disdain
In a world that doesn't care.

So thank you for the letters that you thought you wrote in vain
And for the times you chose to stand out in the rain and wait

You, you understand my pain.
From this I gather strength,
In that we are the same.

So thank you for the letters that you thought you wrote in vain
And for the times you chose to stand out in the rain and wait

The life I live will never be the same without you here